Sunday, September 25, 2005

Ade gave me a worm and a butterfly today!! thanks !! =)

7:49 PM;;
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Thursday, September 15, 2005

Happy birthday to Kai ling and me~! This year have been a special birthday! i was so touch my class sang birthday song for me twice! at the canteen and in the orchestra room. i am shock but happy.
Yea .. today we had practical prelims.. ii was steady for the first time in practical.. haha..
My wish is.. Friends till the end..

4:33 PM;;
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

It was true! today was better.. definately better! haha even though many ppl were shock why i cut my hair.. its ok la i tink.. hair will grow.. today my mother was discussing in the holidays where are going to.. i suggestes quite a number of countries and then when i said new zealand.. i remembered a friend Mary.. i didnt have a chance to say good bye when she left there...
Didnt have a chance to say good bye is really terrible.. i would exchange all my hair if i could go back in time just to say the two words.. i heard my primary school principal also got transferred....
i felt really terrible.. i missed the chance in telling her wat a nice person she is.. i miss her.. she once said A Fuhua student will always be a Fuhua student... that really touched me alot.. becoz my tuition teacher and relatives all look down on my school.. which made me felt embarrassed of my school for a period of time.. she gave me a sense of importantness and hope.. which made me continue to perserver just to uphold the image of the school...
I will never miss another chance now.. i don want to be regretful.. i promised i would say my true feelings if i really do feel so.. i do not want to miss the chance to say good bye..

11:19 PM;;
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Sunset is the most beautiful time of the day.. at least.. thats wat i am feeling.. the best scene to me is when the sun sets across the mountains and pink, orange, purple and blue lights can be seen. to me, its a perfect picture.. although sunset across the sea is beautiful.. i still prefer the hills.
Today is a very bad day for me.. firstly, i never bring my file to school.. and ss is inside.. anyway.. i do the wrong paper also.. so must stand outside.. then i forgot there is chemistry.. totally nv bring anything except a file.. jie yee helped me borrow a text book.. then i had a little argue with jie yee.. i nv bring the prelim papers and i ask her to lend me one set.. coz i also nv hand in workbk.. then i scared that teacher will scold me very badly..
then she say that she want to mark herself so she can learn from her mistakes.. i was so disappointed that i don bother to reply..
i really got scolded for not handling the wkbk... then my phone rang.. my father called me.. yea.. well.. i was not very shock or wat.. in fact i have no feelings.. i don care if the phone is taken or not.. i really dont.. after lesson.. i ran down.. to find my father.. i asked him why called me.. then i started to cry and ran away.. it was very embarrassing.. so i hid in the toilet.. i realised that i am only forcing mysef to act strong.. i don know why i cry.. its not as if i wont get back the phone.. probably i was feeling rather terrible.. got scolded.. fight with friends and all.. then later i sat on the stairs and hid for 5 mins befor i head for the library..
Anyway, i saw Mrs hong on my way back to class.. she told me to hand in parents letter.. but previously she said after school giving me beta form.. nevermind.. Nadia was such a great friend! she told me that even i am having a hard time today, good luck will follows.. haha.. i have patched things up with jie yee and we stayed to do homework together..
... i had a haircut when i went home.. i wanted to cut long ago.. but the hairdresser cut so short then i have no choice.. then..blah blah.. my hair was short.. haha nevemind.. hair will grow..hee
These days.. i cannot stand nagging people.. they really make my head burst.. i find that i don even have the mood to tolerate lame people.. i just don care.. i think its better like that.. at least i feel free.. caring so much on worthless things is not meaningful and bring trouble..
Oh yea! i saved a bird today! i don know if its dumb or cannt fly.. it walk in the middle of the road and nearly squashed by a lorry.. when i saw it.. i was wondering why didnt it fly or get out of the road.. it just continued to stay in the middle of the road.. then i walked over and try to chase it out.. the bird did not move much and i nearly got hit by a car.. it was so embarrassing.. lots of people are wondering why am i turning circles on the road.. haha then i say two cars passed the bird.. that brave thing was rite in the middle of the two cars... a really rare brave bird.. then it finally hopped across the road and then i went home~ hope that thing don do such stupid things again.. byebye!

12:22 AM;;
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Monday, September 12, 2005

hee! i blog this in the middle of nite and soon i am going to bed.. today Jas cant make it so we never study together.. i went studying with ade instead..
haha when my parents send me to jurong east, i met her and we went to play arcade.. hehe... for about half and hour..then got tuition.. after that her brother called and pester me to go to their house.. since i promised him.. then i went.. and i went home quite late also.. like about 10.30..
Hmm.. theres smth different about me .. now i don seem to think so much or bother so much.. i don even bother if it embarrass me or not.. last time .. when my fathers friend fetch me to tuition.. i will worry wat to say later.. where to sit later.. blah blah..
then a few days before, i got a chance to hitch a ride on one of their friends car.. i realised i don even bother about those questions.. that time i also gave a dollar to an old lady with hesitation and never care about watever embarrassment from the passerbys.. i do wat i want to do..
Yup.. thats me.. i know its me.. coz i feel good like that.. haha and i am too tired to talk much now.. good nite yun ru..

12:26 AM;;
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Saturday, September 10, 2005

This looks like the hamsters i used to have. ^^

Hehe this looks so cute to me, like furry ball.
Haha anyway his name is Furby.
Ahh!! i used to have these baby hams too~!
Today i just feel like looking up on hamsters.. i had a really hard time finding the ideal photos becoz..most of them don suit wat i am searching for..
anyway.. i realli missed my hamsters.. but i wont keep anymore pets for now.. i am not responsible enough.. just browsing these photos makes me sad.. old memories kept pouring back..
Prelims are coming le.. haha thats on my birthday too.. it is a special day to me.. haha and i am worried wat my brothers will give me.. i hope they are not up to smth again! i wonder if my real brother will give me anything.. haha that time he gave me 10 dollars and i gave him a sweet on his b'day..
Get scolded.. haha but who ask me to be the big sister~ piority ma! hmm.. haha

10:17 PM;;
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Friday, September 09, 2005

Ytd, our class together with Mrs Wong , we went to watch the Penguin Parade show..Wow! it was so cool and nice.. i didnt know penguins are such determined and magnificant creatures.. they went through all that suffer just to protect their next generations...
Although some parts were quite sad..like some penuins got lost..some eggs drop and froze..the predators killing the mothers and young.. i really hate hate hate those idiotic predators.. but i understand its all part of nature...
Anyway the best thing i gained out the movie is i realised wat i want in life.. i know wat i should do for which makes me turly happy~!
School starting soon.. and today jie yee went to jp with me. my mother asked me to buy flour to make bread..she bought a new auto bread maker.. the first time we make... i can say its terrible.. practically eating stone.. but its really fun!
tml got guitar again..and rehearsal somemore.. haiz... my lesson end about 5 then rehearsal starts at 8...during this period i decided to go to my favourite place~ Library~ hahas. hope today don end so soon.. i don wanna go to school...

6:38 PM;;
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Saturday, September 03, 2005

Haha today was great...although some things happened in the morning.. i went to the comic shop with jia hui.. haha..at first don want to go de... but she there begging and i just couldn't say no.. AHHH why am i like that? anyway i decided to be more decisive...next time if i really dont want i will say no de..
Today i felt like i wasted alot of time..thats why i quarrel with her..haha .. i keep scolding her for her obsession in comics.. anyway..things turned out fine.. i said sorry.. its a wonder how a sorry can change so much...haha

Nevermind! she will always be my beloved cousin! =)

I will put up different pictures to go along with the songs. Belle is my favourite disney character!~

9:34 PM;;
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Yippie!! Today is the start of the holiday. i have been waiting for this day..although my holiday seems pack in the morning, but as long as i have some free time, i am satisfied already. but i really hope to have a full day home jus for one day..no nothing..just stay at home...it have been a long time since i really can have one full day home...
Anyway..during dinner, my family went out to eat. we were discussing that maybe the dunno when holidays we could go to Africa! WOW thats my dream country to visit.!! think of all the cool animals i am going to meet! but i promise i will still go there one day if my parents decide to go to another place..anyway i am still hoping!! ~

hmm... now i am bored so i decide to copy out a book strictly for GALS only! hope it helps you find your Mr Right! =)

It turns out that men are just as frustrating now as they were when you first became aware of their existence.
Men are ridiculously pig-headed and stubborn. They are completely unable to express their feelings, because men have no idea what real strength is.
Men are obsessed with size and appearance.
They are inherently jealous and suspicios, often paranoid about relationships, and will go to great lengths to avoid commitment.
And you know all those childish pet habits they had that you thought they would eventually grow out of?
Well, they dont. Basically, they are unreliable and goofy, because the fact is, men are not very bright.
Its no wonder, then, that trying to have a quality relationship with a man can be the best way to bring on a migraine.
Of course, its easy to ignore the downstream and all the warning signs when an exciting romance is just starting.
At this stage, you not only accept his pointless interests, you embrace them as "cute" and "quirky".
You may even try to involve yourself in his silly games to maximise "quality time" together.
You'll do everything you possibly can to maintain the relationship's momentum.
So you cant hear, or wont listen to, that little voice inside your head whispering "Danger, dander,danger! Loser alert! Loser alert! "
You don trust your female intuition that something unpleasant is about to happen.
Instead, you put all your feelings, hopes, and dreams into his hands, becoming a complete romantic martyr.
Amd then, all of a sudden, you come crashing down to earth in the most dramatic fashion imaginable.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! Another nightmare relationship!
"D'oh" You cant believe its happened again.
All in all you're left feeling like you've been soaking in a bathtub full of squid livers. Men, yeee-uck! Who needs them?
But is dedicating yourself to a chaste lif of religious devotion, high fibre granola, and sensible underwear the only way for a moden woman to find true bliss?
No, it probably is'nt.
In your heart you know how life is supposed to turn out. We've all seen how Mother Nature brings two creatures together in the right place at the right time.
They then fall madly in love and live happily ever after.
And so you ask yourself: "If a penguin can have a worthwhile, stimulating relationship, why the hell cant I?"
Or maybe you ask yourself: "Would I be happier if I started dating a penguin?"
This might sound like a stupid question until you wake up and realize that men and women do not always form the natural union you've been led to believe.
And thus, in some cases a women needs a man like a bear needs a bicycle (or is it "like a fish needs a snowmobile"?)
Anyway, the point is that men and women are essentially different species, which is why it can be so hard for them to stay together.
In layman's terms, as a species, men are simply not as evolved as women.
This is obviously the cause of the painfully backward male attitude toward relationships, which I'm pleased to say has gradually been refined over the last million years, although there is still substantial room for improvement.
What men desperately need are good make role models. Sadly, there are none.
Even if we could build a "perfect man" from scratch, he would still have flaws. You must embrace this fact if you wish to stay sane.
One of the keys to a successful relationship is knowing what you've looking for-you might not have room in your life for a man right now. But even if you dont know what you want, you should acknowledge that and go on from there.
Men don know what they want either, but they dont even know that they dont know. This is clearly not a good platform to build a relationship on
When you are evaluating a potential "Mr Right" candidate, the only important questions are about how you feel. Do you feel special? Do you feel loved and respected? Do you feel that the relationship is bringing out your best?
Too often women get bogged down on incidental issues, like " What is his mother like?"
"How would we look going out together?" and "How many relationships has he been in?"
Wondering about such abstruse hypotheticals like "What kind of father would he be?" and "How might he look in fifty years?" are really just a form of self-inflicted mental abuse.
So forget about the past or the distant future. There is no way to reveal your destiny other than to make it turn out the way you want it to.
Anyway, no one can really see into the future, and anyone who says they can is not someone whom you would like to be stuck next to on a long international flight.
This merely serves to remind us once again how important it is to listen to that little voice inside your heard when it says "Mr Wrong!"
Seriously, though, if a man doesnt measure up you should take immediate action.
You only have one life to live, and the clock is ticking.
You cant afford to answer the door for every creep who comes knocking, you dont have time to chase men who are'nt worth catching.
And you certainly shoudn't be fighting over them. You should leave that sort of unseemly and childish display to men, who have nothing better to do.
But no matter what happens in your relationships, you must never forget that falling down and getting up again is a part of life.
Even more importantly, you must never forget that only you are responsible for your happiness. No other person is necessary to complete you.
Think back to the times when you were truly happy- to when you felt you could do or be anything you wanted. Well, nothing has changed.
The world is still the same wonderful place it was when you were a little girl.
The only difference is now you are old enough, smart enough, confident enough, and strong enough to take on any challenge that life wants to throw at you and to realize your dreams on your terms.
There has never been a better time to be a women in the history of the planet than right now. You can do whatever you want.
Get out there and take what's yours.
Here's the bottom line. If you are true to yourself and can love yourself for who you are, then other poeple will love ou for who you are too and will yreat you accordingly.
And by pursuing your dreams with passion, you will attract a man who is pursuing his dreams with passion- an enlightened, inspired man who will appreaciate the real you.
When you run into this lucky individual, you'll know it was meant to be.
In his eyes you will always be glamorous and beautiful.
He will be someone you can grow old with, someone who will show you exactly how true love is meant to feel.
This is not summer fantasy: this is reality. And what's more, you deserve it!
Not beacause you've the most graceful butterfly in the garden, but simply because you're you, and you're pretty damn fabulour!
At the end of the day, its your party. Enjoy it!

Finally type finish le.. haha

12:24 AM;;
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Thursday, September 01, 2005

The superstar show just finished..haha..i knew he would win..
Today was not any better... i was still in my normal mood..then at nite he told me some things which i don understand...which brought my mood down...i really don know wat did i do or what was the problem...gosh i really don know..so wat is he trying to say ? wat does bye means?
If he really wants it that way then i have no say in it.. i am trying to be happy.. i am also finding one who can completely understands me.. does this person exists even? nevermind..i leave it to fate to decide..
No matter wat happens i still have my special friend with me, always with me, and i am very grateful, i shall ask for no more as i am contented.
Hansen also reminded me that i coud see Jupiter and Mars together tonite at around 7.30. BUT...I missed it.. i was watching tv...AHHHH!!! haha but its ok. i believe i would see them again. haha
tml school starts again.. haha hope it turns out fine.. i hope i hope =)

10:55 PM;;
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