Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Today i never went to school!! i was pondering from ytd's nite weather i should go.. i got the conclusion this morning...
i dun want to go to school becoz i find lectures really boring!! and i dont have enough sleep.. so i must suffer the agony of waiting for time to pass... and my chem tutorial is not complete too!! but most importantly.. i am not feeling too good.. there are like worms in my duodenum, ileum and jojenum!! its hurts... and i am exhusted.. well.. i think this is the first time i deliberatly dun wanna go school... er... i feel so bad!!
but later i am going to school at around 2.30.. got co rehearsal.. friday must perform le!!! i am still saddened by the fact that the teacher cut my part for the second song becoz he forgot and didn't have the time to write the score for me.. this proved how insignificant i was and i feel so hurt!! the percussion team was always given minute attention.. nevermind.. i shall and will practice my current song.. i don want to leave any regrets for my first musical performance in school~
hehe i am so keen to see jie yee again!! this girl.. always making me worry for her!! ( as if i never made her worry) wahaha..will she survive if i'm gone ?? sad sad sad
I love CO~~ =D

12:26 PM;;
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Sunday, January 22, 2006

i am so sleepy.. but its the only time i can use the com as my brother interacts with the computer whole day long!!
well.. life in JJC was really fun!! i learned the true meaning of friendship and all... i also joined chinese orchestra!! i was playing a small version of the xyrofoan.. its about the same as a piano except that its made of metal strips.. i totally love it!! we were preforming on friday!! and i still have one more song to practice!!! i am really afraid that i will play the wrong notes and all... AHH!!! haha and my OG mates are always bullying me!! they call me " Ah gong" and was even scarier then my old classmates!! wah!! =/
haha nvm!
yea... but sad to say that i have made up my mind of not staying in JJC.. i wanna go poly... some of my friends have been tediously persuading me to stay in JJ.. trust me.. i did ever consider staying too.. but till the day i realised that poly was my destiny!! but thats another story.. i am so sry... i will miss jie yee and all the ppl from 4/5 and boon lay!!
i really really really missed my old school... memories are heartbreaking sometimes.. it was only these days i start to appreciate the efforts of my classmates.. why do i always dont appreciate things in the beginning... like i kinda hate st.john and all.. now i missed it terribly..
the day i was walking home from my piano.. i looked around and memories came flooding in.. i missed detention by Mr Yip.. i missed Ms Grace Wong.. yea... and there was one thing i always wanted to say.. to santa who visited me.. i guess i never told you.. but i really really appreciated all the things you have done.. i believe i made you unhappy in some occasions.. just wanna say sorry.. you are truly a great great person.. just that i don understand..
tears started to flow when i was walked towards my school.. i gazed at the silhouette of my school.. its beautiful looking it in the nite.. i cried and cried... somehow.. i dont feel that i belong there anymore..
i must be more realistic huh.. someone once told me that things are actually very simple.. don give it too much thoughts and make it complicated.. well.. i didnt really think that much.. i just missed it...
well.. i am not sad now.. i shall smile*
hmm.. i think i have grown up.. i am more understanding now.. just that ppl still like to lie to me and bully me!! why is that so?? GRRR
haha.. its ok.. someday, i will not allow it to happen!! haha they cant bluff me!! i am waiting for that day~
ih.. eyes closing le.. later tml i late i will die very soon ah!! hee good nite blssians, jjcians =)

10:43 PM;;
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