Friday, September 12, 2008

Ytd nite.. i finally got a chance to talk with someone.. dun want to give any names because what im going to say later is not pointing at anyone. I've guessed a little things, heard a little things, but in all, im sad at some things. Well.. I really cant change what ppl thinks.. but at least, No one till ytd really heard bout MY side of the story.. can i just say a few things?

There is really some misunderstandings.. i wont blame anyone really for thinking in this way or that way. but im thinking.. if its some things which involves me, isnt my views at least of some importance rather than thinking what you heard is rite? Because i think if you assume things or believe in what ppl assumed, then im sad coz i didnt know in your eyes you could see me or believe that im such a person. It could only mean that im lying and they are right and there will certainly involve the issue of trust and no trust.

First of all, I think the main reason i always cause many misunderstandings is because i wont say what im thinking. If you dunno me well, im glad to share with you what kind of character i have. I wont really like to tell ppl what happened to me except for my close girlfriends. But most of the time, if you ask me directly, i will answer you directly too. The reason i dun tell things firstly is because i dun want ppl to know me too well. If you know all my thoughts, then you can guess all my actions. Another thing is, when friends rarely get together, talk so much bout problems for wat? of coz wanna make use of time be happy la... Lastly is.. in friendship, for friends whom i feel can reach a certain stage, naturally, i will tell them certain things. Understanding is the factor here.

Give you one example.
Among all my friends, adeline is the only person i feel that i went through most with. All these years, if im mad at her 100 times, shes only mad at me 1 time. There are many times i will tell her i dun want to treat her as a best friend but as a good friend. There are many times i told her i wont want to trust her anymore. Of coz we wont like that le la.. but what i wanna say is.. i haven been a very good friend to her.
True friendship involves doing something for someone else and expecting nothing in return.
I always argue with her because, i expect smth from her. I expect her to do the things i will do if put in the same situation. but despite frequent arguements, we are really quite close as cousins and friends because we have TIME on our side. We grew up together for 19 years.
Friendship takes time to get to know each other, build shared memories and TRUST.
Though i often say i wont want to trust her last time, but actually i always still do. Trust is smth, only time and situation can bless you with, only smth great and big is enough to break it. i dun see trust as an easy thing. Really.. so far, nothing could break it yet.

I cant say adeline really understands my thinking, coz its different and girls are not that good in analysis. But we always support each other and forgive each other.

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Some friends often say i dun care, i forget about them, i this.. i that... Some expect me to do this or do that.. Some are upset with me because i failed to meet their expectations.. Some say i dun understand them, fail to concern bout them..

Yea.. well.. whatever the case is.. whats
"Forgiveness??"

In my last statement, i can only say this..
You can't create old friends. Only time can bless you with them.

i need to go now for work.. cant really blog finish.. but if any of you wanna know smth more or what, just ask me la. then i will explain. Just dun anyhow guess.. =)

10:46 AM;;
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